i don't like to talk about politics

i never win the debates (which i hate!) and i profess that there's much i don't know (and honestly don't care to know). but i just have to admit, here, with the safety and somewhat anonymity of the internet that Obama freaks me out. i get a weird uneasy settling in my spirit about him, when i see him, when i hear him, when someone even says his name to the point where i almost get angry.

i can't explain it. i know it's not logical. and i know i can't win a debate using my feelings. but i also know that God gives discernment. i know that too many of my closest friends share this same feeling (without knowing previously of mine). i know that many make voting about the issues and some might even say that character doesn't matter. but i think that's crap. if you can't trust their character then how can you trust their policies and plans to run the government?


in mexico a few years back there was a presidential candidate who had a cult-like following, who professed many socialist-like programs, and who didn't become president (and ppl to this day still cry FRAUD in that election). i like the man that won; i think that though the election could have not been fair, i got that same creepy feeling from the other guy and i'm glad he didn't win. through this, i believe that God can even transcend our poor election choices if we cry out to Him to protect us and choose who is best.

He isn't dependent on us to make the right choice for Him to intercede, to work and move - and politics is no exception. (although i think more ppl voted for the loser of the mexican election, God is not limited and put the one He wanted in that position). so that's my strategy. i will pray. pray for this country to not be blinded by any trickery, deception, and popularity. pray for Him to help us vote well. pray for God to do what will give us most of Him. pray for Him to come back - i'm tired of this place.

ps. i do now have some logical arguments that support and enhance my uneasiness, so if you want to know, i can tell you - but i am not interested in a debate, i will not listen to your opinions more than to my spirit, and i'll delete your comment if it's an attack. be friendly :)

anonymous discussion #4

modesty.

what is it?

what does it look like for Christian women?

can you wear shorts, if so what length? what about spaghetti straps, sleeveless, tube tops, halters... and bathing suits? no matter what you do with those you are still half naked... where do you draw the line?

how do you set limits on modesty without being legalistic? do the limits differ for every person? what do you do if you think your friend is dressing immodestly?

(PS. guys, i would really love it if you would be honest and tell me what is a stumbling block for you or not... remember, it's anonymous!)

anonymous discussion #3

i am reading proverbs right now and it talks often about wisdom -- what would you say wisdom is? today i read about how a "wise woman is a crown for her husband" (or something like that) and it just struck me... i WANT to be a wise woman. i WANT wisdom, proverbs talks often about the benefits of it and how "the fear of the Lord is the beginning" of wisdom ...

but what IS wisdom??

anonymous discussion #2

the topic is: harry potter and Christianity.

is it okay to read/let your children read Harry Potter? is it too influenced by witchcraft and therefore "dangerous" or "demonic"? or are Christians too uptight on this one?

what do YOU think?

anonymous discussion #1

there have been some things on my mind lately that i would like an anonymous discussion on. please feel free to comment and tell me what you think!

there's a woman here, an LAM missionary, who is fighting against the legalization of abortion here in mexico city. abortion is an issue that i've never had an opinion on (one of the few hehe) because i can see both sides (listed below) and i would like to know what you think!

pro choice:
i understand that a woman has a right to her body and should be able to choose if she wants children or not. sometimes rape or harm to the mother can be taken into consideration. is abortion something that we as christians should take as our own personal battle? is that not just putting our "moral agenda" and forcing it upon everyone else? what about the people that can't afford to feed the children they already have, do they have a choice?

pro life:
as christians and even just as concerned citizens we should protect life and humans rights, speaking for those who have no voice. all life is sacred and God has a perfect plan for each baby. abortion is inhumane and is murder, and we should not legalize any form of murder. there are plenty of couples that want to adopt so instead of aborting, they should give it up for adoption.

what do YOU think??

after a long week i am back "home" ... steph and i pretty much walked in the house, threw our suitcases down, and fell into bed. now i am sleepy, it's stormy and rainy, and listening to the "once" soundtrack ... it's (almost) perfect.

the orientation went well - it was interesting to meet so many ppl who used to be me less than a year ago. nervous, anxious, with lots of questions and not fully understanding anything ... this morning we sent all of the newcomers home and hopefully they can get through their first weekend by themselves - i'm definitely nervous for them. i really like training and preparing them for their ministries and family life but i miss my kids so much. i don't really know what my role this summer will look like but i want to still love on kids and don't know if i will have a chance to see my compassion kids after all or not... i would also like some people to come with me and visit my kids ... maybe soon?

while i was gone, i celebrated my 4 yr anniversary of being a christian, which is weird and exciting. June 5 was a hard day but now i see it was the best of my life (in a weird way). it was a day of breaking, of everything i thought was most important being taken away, a day after a night without sleep, the first day of the rest of my life ... the day where God caught up with me and showed me my need for Him... these past 4 yrs have been full of tears, struggle, fears, anxieties, new steps, joy, the most amazing friends and mentors, worship, teaching and learning ... they have been the most beautiful of my life and i hope that God continues to challenge and grow me and i never grow stagnant.

i never would have imagined that night that i put myself in His hands that He would have blessed me a million times over with a family of hundreds of brothers and sisters in Denton, that i would be living here in Mexico on His behalf, or the fact that i would hopeful about giving my heart again ...

thank You Jesus.
(i don't ever want to tire of these words)

exactly two months

for those that don't know

i met this guy when i came to mexico my first few months. he wants to be a missionary in the poor parts of mexico, is smart, funny, kind, a gentleman, he challenges me and encourages me, and loves Jesus very much. we started talking and hanging out and realized that we connected well and my directors told us that we can't communicate until august 1st (that will be 7 MONTHS without communication) and i can see him in exactly two months from yesterday.

it's odd - although we can't talk or see each other, God is uniting our hearts for whenever one of us needs prayer. somehow we know and can intercede although we have no way of knowing. i feel proud to know him, proud to know He's growing in the Lord, proud of the work he does for others and for the way he serves and ministers. i am so blessed and cannot wait to hug one of my very best friends again

61 days.

i still like xanga better

but it seems that no one reads it anymore so i will duplicate my posts there and here.