So for those who may not know, here are the current layers of my health.
- much much much pain for many years, endure it, even when it gets worse
- jaw doctor - you have TMJ
- orthodontist - you need braces
- voice specialist(s!!!) - you have
- chiropractor - all of your chronic 20+ years of pain is connected, i might be able to help (Dr. Howell is amazing btw)
- orthotics in shoes - no more feet/knee pain!
- physical therapy & trigger point shots & adjustments - greatly reduced pain! less migraines! getting stronger!
- pain flare ups - at chiro's suggestion I begin to look at inflammatory foods
- cut out gluten - greatly reduced inflammation in my body!!
It seems to me that the human body screams of a Creator God - no way all of this is connected without Elohim directly involved - as well as the sin of man - pain, tears, brokenness, interrupting the perfect harmony our bodies were made to be in. And for me, this journey towards health and introspection has been like uncovering layer upon layer. Once one thing is discovered, there is another part of the puzzle that is missing, another thing to sort out. Once the gluten intolerance is lifted, my migraine symptoms change and there's another thing to pray about and seek wisdom on. And while I'm hopeful for doctors, medicine, new diets, and home remedies can do, I have a new reality now. I have gone through denial, anger, depression, bargaining, and now - acceptance.
I will never be pain free.
And Jesus will help that to be okay.
I know that my story is less severe than many others - but every day I'm walking this, relying on my husband's servant's heart, good perspective and laughter to get me through. Every day I'm dependent on the strength from Jesus to get through or to lie down, to serve or to be served, to enjoy a walk or praise through the pain. Every day I'm balancing complicated layers of many symptoms and real-life responsibilities such as work, chores, and relationships.
This is my daily (gluten-free) bread. Join me.
